New York: remember my name, Fame!

Fame outdoor showing Prospect Park in Brooklyn

Went with a longtime friend to see Fame outdoors in Prospect Park in Brooklyn. A film I’d seen several times as a kid, especially summers in Boise where my brother and I spent two months each year as part of a child custody agreement and where neither of us knew any peers. No friends but my brother meant a lot of watching Fame, My Favorite Year, The Making of Michael Jackson’s “Thriller”, and Purple Rain on VHS (especially Purple Rain, stopped counting after 50+ views).

Memorized

Watched the Thriller VHS so often that I learned the choreography for that music video, and “Bille Jean” and “Beat It” (also included in the VHS). At 14, I got second place in a MJ dance-alike contest (losing to an adorable toddler – several strangers said I should have competed in the 15+ age category). The Summer of 1985 I danced to “Thriller” on the center of Autzen Stadium’s football field during the July 4 fireworks show in Eugene. It came together spontaneously. My Mom got calls from friends the day after and she had no idea it had happened. Stories for a later time.

The crowd dug this super-New York-y movie on this comfortably warm not-too-humid night. Sing Harlem was the opening act. Hadn’t seen this movie in decades. Still charming.

Averted my eyes during that scene with Coco. If you know the scene, you know. Talking at the screen fails to change Coco’s situation. I’ve tried.

Most of the cast ended up having long careers. Gene Anthony Ray, fiery and sly and compelling as Leroy Johnson would continue the role into the Fame television show. During the film, his mother got caught trying to sell illegal drugs on the set. Her behavior continued into the production of the television show and she got arrested running a drug ring. Gene Anthony himself struggled with addiction, was often absent, and ended up dying in 2003 at age 41. Still managed to have a varied career. The Wikipedia page linked above is worth reading.

Gene Anthony attended the school Fame is based on. In this introductory scene, he helps a friend with her dancing audition, while he himself is not interested. Then he gets interested and steals the moment. (Clip is dubbed in French, quel dommage. But Debbie Allen’s asst. dance teacher describes his style as “wicked”.)

As you can see, it’s one of those entertainments where none of the high school students seem to be under 25 years old.

Directed by Alan Parker, whose career includes similarly shot films like Midnight Express, Pink Floyd: The Wall, Birdy, Angel Heart, Mississippi Burning, on and on, his style really conveys the vitality and dark of late 70s New York City. Watching it in Brooklyn conveyed nostalgia for that era. Not that anyone wants that back, necessarily, but it’s a palpable and compelling vibe.

I didn’t watch much of the television show. I liked Debbie Allen, had crushes on Janet Jackson (Willis’ girlfriend from “Different Strokes”!) and Cynthia Gibb. But, just couldn’t get there. If you watched the show I’d like to hear about it.

Prospect Park was a great, low-key location. Lightning bugs flitted on and off in the woods just a few steps away. And it was a delight to see that “Hot Lunch Jam” still slaps.

Tip: The Good Batch’s Chocolate Chunk ice cream sandwich served in Prospect Park is better than the Confetti Cake (sprinkles) one.

My LTR with ‘West Side Story’: It’s Complicated!

I was allergic to musicals growing up. Didn’t see ‘Grease’ until the mid 80s. Didn’t watch ‘Sound of Music’ until the late 80s. Around ’90 became obsessed with ‘Singin’ in the Rain’, later ‘An American in Paris’. The musical form struck me as ridiculous when the world was full of David Lynch and cult classics and massive blockbusters.

In ’85 I was subjected to the movie of ‘West Side Story’. Well, it played in the background while something extraordinary was going on. Let’s say the first major engagement of Eros and with someone I adored. I recall the whiteness of Tony’s overbite. Cries of “Maria!” and co-marveling at the can-you-believe-this-dorky-musical-keeps-playing? moments.

What was really happening was an imprinting process.

I had a self-imposed ban on ever seeing the movie again, out of respect for that one time I barely watched it (we heathens have our rituals, too) and a few times was a bit of a pain in the ass about it. “Oh, no! We have to rent something ELSE! I shall NEVER…” blah blah.

As couples smash plates and glasses after a wedding under the premise those objects would never serve a higher function, I mentally smashed VHS copies of ‘West Side Story’ out of pop culture psychoemotional sanctimony.

And then, ENOUGH!

I rented. No, hold up, I BOUGHT ‘West Side Story’ on VHS and watched it.

Me: “I’ve decided NO FEAR and I am going to watch ‘West Side Story’!”

My apartment mate (reasonably): “…”

In 1993 or ’94 I watched it, all the way through. Of course, I laughed as most everyone does at the dorky gangs.

Sharks and Jets basketball court confrontation
Sharks (L) nattier dressers, Anita’s on their side. Jets (R) a bunch of smart-alecks. Go Sharks!

Think of what gang members have worn in the decades of your life. Aren’t those fashions ridiculous? No way for gangs in the 60s to look cool now. Hoodlums are trite. Go ahead and tell them I said it. I don’t care.

Of course the movie’s music, some of the bite, and the supporting performances got to me. I watched it over and over. Not perceiving the imprinting it had done under primal circumstances a decade before, I defensively mocked the movie to vainly assert an ironic distance. The precision and number of ways I was soon able to cite the movie would make the bond plain to all but the one snarking.

KING LEAR
Thou rascal beadle, hold thy bloody hand!
Why dost thou lash that whore? Strip thine own back;
Thou hotly lust’st to use her in that kind
For which thou whipp’st her.

I was hot for the movie, but was not aware enough to admit it. Like any tedious moral zealot having to stand before microphones to confess lust toward those he publicly rebuked/abhorred.

Chita Rivera, the original Anita on Broadway. Ooof!

I don’t know the movie best in a room of people. I was baffled by a colleague a few years ago who made reference to “Puerto Rico, island of tropical breezes.” WTF? I looked at him. “It’s from the song ‘America’.” “No, it isn’t” I said haughtily while mentally running through the lyrics. He was right. It’s in the musical, but is not a line in the MOVIE. He was being friendly, and inadvertently my erudition totally GOT SERVED!

Now, however, I get there are significant differences between the lyrics, order of the songs, and arrangement between the Broadway production(s) and the movie. Some lyrics are improved in the movie. And the song order makes more sense to me in the movie with “Cool” sung by Ice (!) after Riff is dead, and “America” is better as an interplay between Bernardo and Anita, the two best performers in the movie. So glad they both got Oscars.

Rita Moreno is an idol from ‘The Electric Company’ t.v. show (“Hey you guys!” was her catch-yell). That she also played Zelda in ‘Singin’ in the Rain’ makes her all-time. One of the few EGOTs ever.

Once reminded of one song, they come not single-spies but in batallions. I end up reminiscing, humming, bellowing, jumping octaves while traipsing over the whole soundtrack.

John Barrowman, mensch, gives a really solid perfomance of “Maria” below. He miffs the last note (who wouldn’t?) but he sings like he means it. So many use it to show off without trying to convey any emotion. “Check out the runs I can make!” kinda crap that induces saccharine shock on television singing contests like ‘American Idol’.

But when I sing, it’s not held to one character. Or the dude characters. Once I’m in, I’m in full throttle singing mostly all of the parts. Sometimes I invoke a heavenly/hellish daydream where I perform the entire soundtrack (at least the songs with lyrics) as a one-person revue. Keep the paddy wagon parked right outside the theater.

I know in the clip above Natalie Wood’s singing is overdubbed. I know that, crazily, the Grammy-winning (and Tony-winning, and Emmy-winning, and Oscar-winning) Rita Moreno is overdubbed. On a commentary track, Moreno politely, but rightly, nitpicks about the overdub, including its use of a faked Mexican accent instead of a Puerto Rico accent.

I know the movie is melodrama. I know neither one of their arguments makes sense. Anita: “Stick to your own kind!” Maria: “Right or wrong, what else can I do?” Both have ROTTEN advice and LOUSY proclamations!

Yet, even though the role of Maria can be a trilling soprano extravaganza at the expense of articulation (the version above is modest on this count) and expression, Could be the crying sound of ecstatic, despondent female voices, the urgency of the music. But I am moved most every time I hear the song, especially the end lamentation/surrender/boast. Decades away from such high drama in my own life, the coda makes me solemn and brings the adolescent urgency and surging of hormones and hope for metaphysically impossible things and deflation and euphoria like nothing else.

I’m not entirely rational, is what I’m saying.

[Originally posted in October 2011. Haven’t seen the new Spielberg movie yet, but the soundtrack is fantastic. Listening to it now as I type. Rita Moreno sings a solo “Somewhere” in her own voice!]

Prince’s song “Adore” is 3.2x better than “Purple Rain”

From the start, the finale of Prince’s Purple Rain album bored me. Not the movie (which, thanks to remote summers as a teen I’ve seen 50+ times), but the final tracks “Baby I’m a Star” and “Purple Rain”.

See, doesn’t Prince himself look a little bored?

“Baby I’m a Star” sounds off-key, like someone playing with the pitch dial. For instance, in the chorus Prince sings “Oh baby I’m a” and the Revolution wanly warbles “…staaaar” like a cat wanting to get let in the house. I’ve spent 37 years trying to like it. But life only allots us a finite number of heartbeats, so I’m done trying.

People who have seen the movie feel obliged to languidly point one finger or whole hand upward then slowly sway their arm back and forth as “Purple Rain” plays. The First Avenue club extras in the movie did. But it feels like a shallow duty, like reciting the Pledge of Allegiance or standing respectfully while a foreign nation’s unfamiliar anthem plays. Are people genuinely moved beyond nostalgia, by resonant, personal emotions? Or do they mostly experience fondness for the movie or the album? Granted, the audience participation element feels great. But, oh, the ongoing repetitive guitar and basic drums that cycle for too many measures. The long fade out with synth strings into tinkling sounds that goes…so…long…

Waiting for you and far more moving, playful, charming, and shorter is “Adore”, the culminating song of Prince’s Sign o’ the Times album. He infused it with a range of genres (including doo wop & testimonial gospel) that run above and below and circles around a basic slow jam groove. His vocal harmonies and dissonances reflect the many facets of romantic feelings, yet soar at the end with warm, united enthusiasm. Outright lovely.

These lines at the midpoint always make me laugh:

This condition I got is crucial (crucial).
You could say that I’m a terminal case.
You could burn up my clothes, smash up my ride.
(Well maybe not the ride.)

He’ll love you for all time, pour his soul into this song and sacrifice most anything. But, please don’t mess with his car. He needs that.

Great, just great.

Listen below:

See? Hear? Isn’t that better than the song “Purple Rain”?

Siskel & Ebert – Intro to Criticism

The first examples of art criticism I heeded growing up were Gene Siskel and Roger Ebert on Sneak Previews on PBS. “Gene Siskel, film critic from the Chicago Tribune” and “Roger Ebert, film critic from the Chicago Sun-Times” introduced one another each week sitting across the aisle in a movie theater balcony set. Rediscovering their reviews has been a comfort in these bunkered times.

It was thrilling to watch grown-up programs on Oregon Public Broadcasting “No commercials? Yay!” having graduated from Sesame Street, Mr. Rogers’ Neighborhood, Zoom, on and on. Miraculously, my parents also let me watch I, Claudius, the sensational BBC/PBS mini-series on Masterpiece Theater. That experience amplified my interest in classical history (at least the violence, sex, and political parts) and provided the namesake for one of my children (no, not named Claudius). In the era of three major channels, PBS was a miraculous fourth option that could be more dry and square than the major networks, yet other times more vital and sublime.

Both Siskel and Ebert could exude enthusiasm, both could seethe with disdain. They could like low-key movies I would never choose to see but inspired me to seek out. They could validate the big event pictures I just saw or was about to see so I got to feel more adult liking what they did, with pointers on discernment in film. Check out their exuberance over Superman II when they were still on PBS and had the luxury of nine minute reviews:

When they became sensations they graduated from PBS stations to syndication, creating the program At the Movies as lesser reviewers [e.g. Michael Medved – barf!] took over their Sneak Previews PBS gig. Then they left At the Movies, also subsequently taken over by lesser reviewers, to finally occupy Siskel & Ebert, their syndicated home until Siskel’s death in early 1999. After Siskel’s death, Ebert wrote about their early days:

“We both thought of ourselves as full-service, one-stop film critics. We didn’t see why the other one was quite necessary. We had been linked in a Faustian television format that brought us success at the price of autonomy. No sooner had I expressed a verdict on a movie, my verdict, than here came Siskel with the arrogance to say I was wrong, or, for that matter, the condescension to agree with me. It really felt like that. It was not an act. When we disagreed, there was incredulity; when we agreed, there was a kind of relief. In the television biz, they talk about “chemistry.” Not a thought was given to our chemistry. We just had it, because from the day the Chicago Tribune made Gene its film critic, we were professional enemies. We never had a single meaningful conversation before we started to work on our TV program. Alone together in an elevator, we would study the numbers changing above the door.”

When they disagreed, it was a lesson in dialectic. Generally, Siskel tended to be more prude, Ebert more epicurean. But sometimes they would flip. Look how they disagree over the stupendously pulpy Rocky IV in a six minute review:

Siskel surrenders to the sensations and emotional hooks of the movie and seems enraptured. Ebert, for once, cluck clucks and wonders how his colleague got so suckered in. Siskel grabs Ebert’s hand at one point (!) which is unusual for someone who carefully projected aloofness.

In time I realized they weren’t genius film critics, though Ebert’s writing sometimes burned with a hard, gemlike flame. But as I got to know their traits I could assess from their reviews – what one liked and why, what the other hated and why – where I would stand.

I suggest going down the YouTube rabbit hole and watching their reviews of movies you know. It can be delightful. I was surprised how vivid my recall was of some of their movie reviews. Before the internet, their t.v. shows often had a minute or more of a movie one wanted to see that wasn’t shown in commercials or trailers. The adrenaline could kick in for some of those moments and maybe that made them etch into memory.

Here’s a gem among many gems: their review of the movie Dune. No question it’s an incoherent movie without having crammed for it (I have a glossary of terms they gave ticket buyers to help them get oriented, though I had read the book and could follow it). But Siskel’s bewilderment and repulsion by the whole thing (reasonable) and Ebert’s perverse delight in the absurd waste and indulgence of the project (also reasonable) wonderfully sums up why I’ve probably watched the movie a dozen times:

Although eventually I outgrew their movie insights, I remain grateful to both of them and was saddened by Siskel’s death in 1999 and Roger Ebert’s death in 2013. Both of them were terrific public presences and talk show guests over their decades together. Ebert, in particular, was vulnerable and witty and compelling on The Howard Stern Show. If you want to amuse yourself a few minutes at a time, seek out their videos. I’d be delighted to get your observations and memories in the comments below.

Let’s hope to get back to movies in theaters again someday. “Until then, the balcony is closed.”

A better nation will need a better media

It was a publicity stunt.

Michael Cohen has many observations through his tell-all: Trump and his team expected he would lose in 2016. Trump welches on everyone and is bad at deals. Trump has no friends. Trump is a racist whose hatred (envy?) of Obama sent his rage to the stratosphere.

A contrite Michael Cohen, serving time for a crime that Trump directed, wants us to know most especially that Trump will not leave office unless forced. Trump is too much of a child, and does not want to face consequences.

I enjoy unreliable narrators. The past couple of years I have tended to a little Nabokov, books about Nabokov, books about other books about Nabokov, 1990s books from the big Critical Theory backlash on sex & culture, and pulpy political memoirs/exposés.

Disloyal by Michael Cohen combines an unreliable narrator with a pulpy memoir. It’s chewy stuff. He has good analysis of how the Trump orbit makes people into the worse version of themselves. The lure of power, no matter how tacky and cruel and dumb, becomes intoxicating and a person just wants more, more, more.

“That is what it feels like to lose control of your mind — you actually give up your common sense, sense of decency, sensitivity, even your grip on reality. […] I was in a cult of personality. And I loved it.”

Cohen’s spouse, and eventually his two children, know that Trump is corrosive from the start. And the contrast of Cohen’s sensible family at home, compared to the delusions in the Trump club, runs throughout the book. A few quick chewy bits, then I want to get to the real point:

Cohen downplays the connections to Russia (which I think are lower than reported, but not as low as Cohen conveys), but the financial reliance of Trump on Russia and Putin remain strong. Trump has a crush on Putin and sees a daddy figure to earn approval from.

Putin hates Hillary Clinton, and Trump saw a campaign as an opportunity to attack Clinton and thus curry Putin’s favor. He perceived Putin as the richest man in the world, and if Trump noticeably antagonized Clinton maybe Putin would be more inclined to funnel him money.

After a 2014 meeting that Trump had with evangelicals (often amoral grifters themselves) in Trump Tower where they laid hands on him and prayed (mirrored later on in a post-election Oval Office photo-op), Cohen reports Trump saying:

“Can you believe that bullshit? Can you believe people believe that bullshit?”

Cohen makes a compelling case that Trump is a snob and holds great contempt for the people who form his base. But since they’re the only ones who show up, he’s compelled to play to them, and often derides them post-rally. Cohen writes:

“The cosmic joke was that Trump convinced a vast swathe of working-class white folks in the Midwest that he cared about their well-being, […] The truth was that he couldn’t care less.”

But the most compelling part – the molasses nightmare part – is to view through Cohen’s eyes the Trump Presidential campaign. Its launch as a sloppy, hammy, gaudy publicity stunt for his brand and The Apprentice game show with no plan to win the election. Yet the media gave Trump free airtime. Airtime worth, conservatively, billions of dollars.

Even on Election Night 2016, the Trump family and campaign staff did not think he would win. Many did not want to win, including Trump. Being President represented a big hassle. Yet, there he was. Winner of the Electoral College, having spent little money and few staff on his campaign team.

24-hour news networks (CNN, MSNBC, Fox News, etc.) have too much airtime to fill with too little news, and too few reporters. So they are in the habit of 2-3 minutes of genuine information followed by 10-12 minutes of redundant commentary from people who usually affirm the points already made in the 2-3 minute reportage.

Spending hours and months and years airing Trump rallies with their fawning crowds and loathsome, galling moments was easy for networks to do. It made Trump supporters happy. It made others angry. Adrenaline and emotional engagement up, viewers locked in. Ratings rose and held steady so long as the story was Trump. Cheap content and a great revenue source.

With his rallies and his Twitter tantrums, Trump became the lazy mainstream media’s National Assignment Editor. It was such a flood of coverage that Trump, with the help of weird lucky bounces in the Electoral College, became President even though he didn’t want to.

Mainstream media simplifies issues to: our side and the other side. Establishment Republicans versus Establishment Democrats. Rather than present a reasonable middle, or simply report facts, they narrow their focus to marketing to one of these two groups and entice them to stay for more confirmation of their viewer’s feelings. Matt Taibbi’s book Hate, Inc. is essential context for how things ended up this way.

Everyone is cynical about the media. We sense that a big part of it is junk. Yet, we watch.

Third or alternate or fuller narratives rarely intrude. Neither party truly makes changes for people who aren’t wealthy. Both pander to Wall Street more than people. Trump claimed to want to drain the swamp, but filled his high-turnover administration with so many crooks and D-list figures he pumped the swamp full of sewage.

I voted for Biden because he’s not cruel. I don’t expect greatness from him, but I expect him to at least slow our tumbling toward ruin, maybe even make things better here and there although our people sorely need more.

BUT BACK TO COHEN’S BOOK, here’s a money quote:

“Trump saw politics as an opportunity to make money”

So does the media looking at Trump.

Aaron Sorkin’s series The Newsroom was largely mediocre, often groan-inducing, sometimes on the nose. It’s important to know that it aired before the Trump Administration, so its cynicism about lazy news networks comes across as a rosy depiction of a time before a big whiny baby’s Twitter rant led to 30 minutes of airtime coverage.

One scene from The Newsroom that sticks in my mind. No, not from the premiere where a middle-aged guy growls a condescending rant to a young female college student (oh, Sorkin…). But a scene when there’s a scandal at the centrist cable network. A reporter is fired for distorting an important interview, more heads need to roll. The boss of the network, the lead anchor, and the anchor’s producer are deflated and resigned to resigning.

Jane Fonda plays the owner of the network (after marriage to CNN owner Ted Turner, fun!) and breezes in after a society function. She plays this scene marvelously. Masterfully. The network head laments: “We don’t have the trust of the public anymore!”

Fonda’s character commands: “Get it back!” Cut to black. End of episode.

We should insist that mainstream media stop pandering to our emotions and earn our trust back.

When you have the power, but shrinking, you freak out

I got a gem of a fundraising letter from Nikki Haley wringing its hands over leftist “bullies” (9 times) and anti-freedom leftist “mobs” (32 times). So, if I love my country, I should donate to its right-wing summer camp-thing for college students.

Too many howlers to list, and its plumply redundant 8 pages could be cut to a page and a half and lose nothing but its rubber mallet repetition. The best phrase:

“And you and I must stand up to all who bully and oppress.”

Ah, yes. The Republican party, its numbers shrinking, lost the popular vote for President 6 of the last 7 elections, openly reliant on gerrymandering and voter suppression and the undemocratic Electoral College to hold to power. Yet it holds the White House, Senate, and Supreme Court. Always put-upon, always whining it’s oppressed. And Trump, who bullies and bitches and preaches for uprisings against political rivals every day.

I’m not a fan of the Democratic party establishment. Its leadership is also too concerned with holding institutional power and refuses to make changes, that most citizens support, that help regular people because those changes would irk corporate donors. They love the professional class and also make kissy faces to Wall Street at our expense.

But, really, with Trump and the Republicans controlling three of four centers of Federal power (used to be all four), jailing peaceful protestors, giving detained asylum seekers and immigrants involuntary hysterectomies, shooting at the media and moms, proudly spreading virus — who’s being the bully and oppressor?

Wasn’t Melania going to rid us all of bullying? She done with that yet?

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Powers of observation trending Up?

Original cover of Gabriel’s Up

Only now, after owning Peter Gabriel’s album Up for eighteen years and having listened to it, conservatively, dozens and possibly a hundred times, did I notice the blurred image in the background.

My eyes, from the moment of purchase, were on the falling (rising?) droplets. Today, listening to the album for the first time in a while, the album art came up on the player in a thumbnail. And, not catching it in the first place back in 2002, I thought “Wait. Is that Peter Gabriel’s face?”

Indeed it is. A later remastered version with a zoomed-back image made this even more obvious.

Later edition of Up that says “Hey, dummy. Get it now?”

No particular wisdom to offer here. I felt obliged, after not posting for a while, to share my delight and shame at realizing something I probably should have gotten three U.S. Presidents ago.

Mary Trump’s immersive family diagnosis

He’s been hollow within for decades, arguably since age 7. He’s profoundly insecure and not good at stuff. Not in a small way, in a chronic way. He doesn’t have the confidence to admit failing and instead lies and blames other people. These traits render him incapable of solving problems.

Looks like a nice, principled guy, right?

Mary Trump, niece to Donald Trump with a PhD. in psychology, has written a deep analysis of her family. The throughline is how Donald and his siblings grew up with odd and undemonstrative parents. How the siblings branched out from the same weird trunk provides interesting contrasts to one another. Donald, full of bluster and ambition and blundering, easily surpassed his siblings at the top of his father’s affections because his father, Fred Trump, was awkward in public and liked having a charismatic son as a front for the family business. Fred Trump did not view his son as competent, just a front, and Fred continued to run things and rescue his son from failures over and over.

Once Fred died, the bankruptcies accelerated. The tacky branding of Trump steaks or the Trump airline or the demonstrable fraud of Trump University merely starts a long list of fiascos and evidence of Donald’s horrible inability to make deals or even know what’s in the books with his name on them. He ruins his projects and robs his business partners and contractors. He was a financial wreck when he got a t.v. show that pretended he was a financial success and much of the public thought, well, if they saw him on t.v. getting into a helicopter on a skyscraper helipad, he must be a rich guy.

I listened to the audiobook, which Mary Trump capably narrates. Her tone is measured and calm throughout. She has decades of research and pinpoints the factors at play far better than pundits who pad their analyses with armchair psychology.

The pathologies she describes are not surprises. But she capably makes the case that at this point her uncle Donald’s behavior cannot change and will not change. It is foolish to wait for any reflection by him. He has no multi-layered strategy. He is a creature of appetite and impulse.

She diagnoses uncle Donald as incapable of ever being happy. The main things that give him pleasure are bullying others and getting away with things. He boasts and preens to win the approval of his father, who is dead and can never give him the praise he so desperately needs. Donald desperately clamors for attention and approval from a phantom. He is a failure who claims to be self-made but has gone bankrupt five times and been bailed out by his father with a total of $413 million (she is the primary source of Trump family financial records in the New York Times’ epic “Trump Engaged in Suspect Tax Schemes as He Reaped Riches Off His Father” in October 2018). He is a tax cheat, cruel, indifferent to family and has contempt for the people who voted for him, but they’re the only ones who give him praise so he taps them over and over to fill the void within.

He is dumb about history and does not understand government. He wants to be perceived as a success, no matter the cost or the lies, and the rest of us are disposable.

There is no person to recover at this point. There is only whether to allow him and his enablers to further ruin and rob us.

Portland doesn’t need or want these Federal goons

Get these goons out of our city. Trump’s failures have led to more than 137,000 deaths, a massive recession, and rampant unemployment. He has chosen to send unmarked Federal agents to my city, Portland Oregon, to attack peaceful protestors, almost killing one from across the street this week (still recuperating from his head injury). About graffiti. They’ve escalated to abducting peaceful citizens off the street using unmarked vehicles. Trump is a whiny little bitch, a coward, and fraud and wants to fan the flames of hatred to his base on his media outlets rather than save lives by doing his fucking job competently.

Oregon and Portland did not ask for this. This ongoing stunt circumvents city police, county sheriffs, and state police. They want these goons gone. The Governor and Mayor and our Congressional delegation have demanded that these goons be removed. Peaceful protests against police violence should not be met by amplifying police violence.

Photo by Alex Wittwer, Willamette Week (click photo for story)

I called the White House, but its phone line for comments has been shut down. Weak-ass. The option was to send an email instead, which I did.

Trump has gone bankrupt five times. He is not a self-made man. His dad lent him $400m to bail him out over and over. He’s tied in with the mob. He was bankrupt when he became a game show host pretending he was wealthy. He pardons and commutes sentences of his political hit lackeys, while his personal attorney sits in jail for doing an act that Trump himself directed but cannot be prosecuted for (yet). He is a hollow person who will never be content and whose main delights are getting away with bullying and crime. The only person on Earth worse than Trump in costing lives is Brazilian President Bolsonaro, who also summons his fans to mass events that fill his ego at the cost of increasing pandemic spread and illness and death. Look at Tulsa and Oklahoma now.

Trump has made our nation a laughingstock as our people in massive numbers get sick and die, especially now in states that voted for him. And he also wants to take away the healthcare of millions, and has no problem with sending students and educators into school to get sick and die so he can pretend things are normal and not a disaster due to his ongoing epic fuck-ups. His entire history is full of fuck-ups and fraud.

If you don’t live in Oregon, ensure your state has vote by mail. It’s easy and secure, but requires good planning.

Work to make your friends vote. Consider donating to campaigns in other states if your state is secure. Vote Save America is a good place to lend a hand: https://votesaveamerica.com/save-america/

Photo by Dave Killen, The Oregonian (click photo for gallery)

Lunch Break

Thin broad paperback splayed open. Heartfelt words by a local poet.

He stretches on the page, contracts against a nurtured state of snark.

Food. Ice tea.

Smartphone on the table, docile. Was that a buzz? No. Focus. Turn it face down.

Bag of papers of notes. Kindle in the bag.

This journal. Rectangles waiting for attention. Tending them in turn.

Piped in songs just loud enough to push folks away and maintain customer ingress/egress balance.

Three chairs at this small rectangle table empty, my bag in the chair to the right.

Left legged propped by my right knee, left foot resting then tapping on the lip of the chair across.

Glance at the chair’s backrest. How is… Where is…

Ideas pop in. Press pen into paper and bow back down to work.

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