The shenanigans started early. Kansas City, Missouri (1853) precedes the state of Kansas (1861) by eight years. In 1872 a collection of Kansas towns on the border merged and named themselves Kansas City to take advantage of the popular original city just, like, right over there in Missouri.
Both sides of my family come from the NE corner of Kansas, and it’s no surprise to people who know me that I’m descended from sneaks. It’s a local legend that Kansas City (Kansas) intended to trick bankers into lending the newer city money thinking they were lending to the larger and more prosperous city.
Showing even more “sand” or “balls” or “ovaries” or “gumption”, Kansas politicians made a grab to annex the large Missouri city into Kansas the state. The Kansas City Times editorial board in 1878 wrote: “Kansas City, Mo., is the legitimate outgrowth of the state of Kansas. In everything but a line on the map she is essentially a city of Kansas.” Annexation didn’t happen.
“Kansas” as a place name started with the Kansas River, itself named after the Kanza People of the Kaw Nation.
On January 20, 2017 Donald Trump inherited the strongest economy in 20 years, zero net immigration, and promised on Inauguration Day that he will fight for you with every breath in his body and never, ever let you down. How’s he doing with his other inaugural promises & observations?
1.) We are in a great national effort to rebuild our country and restore its promise for all our people. 2.) We will determine the course of America. 3.) We will get the job done. 4.) We are transferring power from Washington D.C. to the people. 5.) A small group in the Capitol have reaped the rewards of government as the people bear the costs. 6.) Politicians prospered, the jobs left, and the factories closed. 7.) Establishment protected itself but not citizens. 8.) Victories have not been people’s victories. 9.) Triumphs have not been people’s triumphs. 10.) Little to celebrate for struggling families all across our land. 11.) All that changes right here, right now. 12.) The U.S.A. is your country. 13.) Government controlled by the people is what matters. 14.) January 20, 2017, will be remembered as the day the people ruled the U.S. again. 15.) Forgotten men and women of our country will no longer be forgotten. 16.) Everyone is listening to you now. 17.) The world has never seen a historic movement like this before. 18.) The movement’s crucial conviction is that a nation exists to serve its citizens. 19.) Americans want great schools, safe neighborhoods, and good jobs for themselves. 20.) These demands are just and reasonable from our righteous public. 21.) Mothers and children trapped in poverty in our inner cities. 22.) Rusted-out factories are scattered like tombstones across our nation. 23.) A well-funded education system, flush with cash, leaves our young and beautiful students deprived of all knowledge. 24.) Crime and gangs and drugs have stolen too many lives and robbed our country. 25.) This American carnage stops immediately. 26.) We share one heart, one home, and one glorious destiny. 27.) We subsidize other armies, allowing to the sad depletion of our own. 28.) We defend other nation’s borders while refusing to defend our own. 29.) We spend trillions overseas while our infrastructure has decayed. 30.) We make other countries rich as our wealth, strength, and confidence has dissipated. 31.) The factories shuttered and left our shores, with not even a thought about the millions of American workers left behind. 32.) Middle class wealth ripped from homes and redistributed across the world. 33.) That is past and we look only to the future. Now it’s going to be only America First. 34.) All trade, taxes, immigration, and foreign affairs decisions will be made to benefit our workers and families. 35.) Protecting our borders leads to great prosperity and strength. 36.) Trump will fight for you with every breath in his body. 37.) Trump will never, ever let you down. 38.) America will start winning again and like never before. 39.) We will bring back our jobs and our borders. 40.) We will bring back our wealth. 41.) We will bring back our dreams. 42.) We will build new roads, highways, bridges, airports, tunnels, and railways across the nation. 43.) We will get our people off of welfare and back to work. 44.) We will follow two simple rules: Buy American and Hire American. 45.) We will seek friendship and goodwill with the nations of the world. 46.) It is the right of all nations to seek their interests first. We do not seek to impose our way of life on anyone. 47.) We will unite the civilized world against radical Islamic terrorism and eradicate it completely. 48.) Through our loyalty to our country, we will rediscover our loyalty to each other. 49.) When your heart opens to patriotism, there is no room for prejudice. 50.) We must speak our minds openly, debate our disagreements honestly, but always pursue solidarity. 51.) When united, the U.S. is totally unstoppable. 52.) We will always be protected. 53.) We will be protected by the military and most importantly God. 54.) We will no longer accept politicians who are all talk and no action. 55.) The time for empty talk is over, the hour of action has arrived. 56.) We will not fail and will thrive and prosper. 57.) New national pride will stir our souls, lift our sights, and heal our divisions. 58.) Regardless of skin color, we all bleed the red blood of patriots. 59.) You will never be ignored again. 60.) Your courage and goodness and love will forever guide us along the way. 61.) We will make America strong again. 62.) We will make America wealthy again. 63.) We will make America proud again. 64.) We will make America safe again. 65.) We will make America great again. 66.) Trump will faithfully execute the office of the President of the United States. 67.) Trump, to the best of his ability, will preserve, protect, and defend the U.S. Constitution.
George W. Bush after Trump’s Inaugural Address: “Well, that was some weird shit.”
When feeling down & dull, it’s inspiring to return to the sublimity of Walter Pater:
Not the fruit of experience, but experience itself, is the end. A counted number of pulses only is given to us of a variegated, dramatic life. How may we see in them all that is to be seen in them by the finest senses? How shall we pass most swiftly from point to point, and be present always at the focus where the greatest number of vital forces unite in their purest energy?
To burn always with this hard, gemlike flame, to maintain this ecstasy, is success in life. In a sense it might even be said that our failure is to form habits: for, after all, habit is relative to a stereotyped world, and meantime it is only the roughness of the eye that makes any two persons, things, situations, seem alike. While all melts under our feet, we may well grasp at any exquisite passion, or any contribution to knowledge that seems by a lifted horizon to set the spirit free for a moment, or any stirring of the senses, strange dyes, strange colours, and curious odors, or work of the artist’s hands, or the face of one’s friend […]
Well! we are all condamnés, as Victor Hugo says; we are all under sentence of death but with a sort of indefinite reprieve — les hommes sont tous condamnés à mort avec des sursis indéfines: we have an interval, and then our place knows us no more. Some spend this interval in listlessness, some in high passions, the wisest, at least among “the children of this world,” in art and song. For our one chance lies in expanding that interval, in getting as many pulsations as possible into the given time. Great passions may give us this quickened sense of life, ecstasy and sorrow of love, the various forms of enthusiastic activity, disinterested or otherwise, which come naturally to many of us. Only be sure it is passion — that it does yield you this fruit of a quickened, multiplied consciousness. Of such wisdom, the poetic passion, the desire of beauty, the love of art for its own sake, has most. For art comes to you proposing frankly to give nothing but the highest quality to your moments as they pass, and simply for those moments’ sake.
– Walter Pater, from Conclusion to The Renaissance
“Head Over Heels” is a sumptuous, colorful jukebox musical that blends the music of The Go-Go’s and Sir Philip Sidney’s 16th Century Arcadia. The same-sex romance at the center is added, but much of the transvestism belongs to Sidney in the 1500s.
The humor is bawdy and sly and exuberant. Relationships of all kinds abound and treated with the usual conventions of period romantic comedy with many wry quarter-twists here and there. There’s wrestling with a lion!
The central figure is Philanax, the royal fool, who functions as chorus, narrator, and playwright’s proxy. Like a combination of the characters Autolycus and Time in Shakespeare’s ‘The Winter’s Tale’ (though the Oracle in ‘Head Over Heels’ also serves a role similar to Time).
I have a distinct memory of Professor Robert Grudin in an Advanced Shakespeare class discussing ‘The Winter’s Tale” and going into detail on how the character Autolycus was a proxy/metaphor and asked what he represented. Silence. Grudin then prompted with pain in his voice: “He’s a peddler of tales, celebrated for his creativity, a comic and creative character.” More silence. He swallowed and after an inward moment of palpable existential/career despair before the couple dozen of us dullards: “He represents the artist.” The memory of this still makes this dullard laugh, 28 years later.
Notes on the playwright, Jeff Witty. He was an acquaintance in college. Fast forward more than a decade to 2004. I am channel flipping and stop on the Tony Awards. I never watched the Tony Awards. Within a couple minutes, Jeff Whitty takes the stage for winning Best Book for his work on “Avenue Q”. I freak out. Did I mention never watching the Tonys, then this person I recognize is onstage having fucking WON! I go nuts. I call my friend that he dated, enthusiastic that a good guy earned a premiere award. In the decade plus since then, I do watch a few MORE minutes of the Tonys every few years, but that high will likely never be matched.
Narrator in LDS Missionary garb, Mormon Temple. Photo by my daughter at age 9.
Jeff continues to do thoughtful, fun work. To my shame, I still haven’t seen “Avenue Q”. Yes, I should because the composer later won a Tony for his work with Trey Parker & Matt Stone on “The Book of Mormon”, a musical I have seen in person THREE TIMES and have listened to the soundtrack about a HUNDRED MILLION TIMES, even dressing like a Mormon missionary for Halloween 2011, then wearing that same costume and posed in front of the Mormon Temple in Salt Lake City (making my kids take the photo) in June 2012. “Avenue Q” essentially calls out to me as plainly as possible. Still, hermit-like, haven’t made it.
I was delighted by Whitty’s play “The Further Adventures of Hedda Gabler” in 2008. It built on the same lead actress, Robin Goodrin Nordli, as the previous production of “Hedda Gabler” put on in Ashland. “The Further Adventures” resumed with the dead Hedda Gabler simply getting up from the stage she had died on a few years before and we were rolling.
Musidorus makes Philanax bloom. Photo: Jenny Graham.
Two older people next to me left “Head Over Heels” at the intermission, one muttering “Too much. It’s too much.” I smirked. The majority of people stayed. And the majority of people’s spirits stayed high, and it was an older crowd (older than me). Was the adolescent part of me amused by my instinct to sneer and the older folks around me (so, like, 47 years or older) who apparently DIDN’T know that the clapping part of “We Got the Beat” goes clap-clap, clap, clap-clap, clap? Yes. But even without everyone catching that subtlety, the crowd clapped in time.
POSTSCRIPT: I drafted this in 2015 but spaced-off posting it. Since then, “Head Over Heels” got to Broadway. I read a New York Times article about the incoming production, excited this idiosyncratic and bouncy musical by a good person with an English degree from the same fond but mid-level state university I did. All seemed right with the world. Then the article mentioned Whitty left the project before it got to Broadway. No idea why. I live on the other side of the continent and far, far from theater circles. But it was a WTF moment. The Broadway show opened July 2018 and closed January 2019.
Since then, Whitty earned an Oscar nomination for Best Adapted Screenplay for the comedy Can You Ever Forgive Me.
Today is Elvis Presley’s birthday and by 1968, at an ancient 33 years old, he needed a comeback. He was 27 or 28 films into a junky Hollywood career (although Jailhouse Rock is amusing, and King Creole is genuinely good. No, I’m not kidding.). A comeback special got scheduled, Elvis slimmed down (due to good choices and also, well, pills) and showed regained vitality throughout the broadcast. In the acoustic segments in particular he recovered his guileless strangeness that made his 50s recordings so essential.
For my favorite parts, the acoustic sessions, he reunited with his original lead guitarist, Scotty Moore. Bill Black, the bassist in the original trio (Elvis on rhythm guitar) had already died. D.J. Fontana, the first drummer to back Elvis, also plays in these segments.
I recommend you do a search for the entire Elvis Presley 1968 Comeback Special. The entire program(me) is a delight of fluctuating rawness and cornball showmanship.
In 1977, at age 42, he’d be bloated again, frustrated by his bloat but still striving to entertain, and by August he’d be dead. There’s a lot to mock but a lot to mourn in his life. Below is the finale of the program. He wanted to sing about unity given the special followed the April 1968 murder of Martin Luther King, Jr. and June 1968 murder of Robert Kennedy. Even in a white suit, he channels something essential here.
And, honestly, between us, is this song any goofier than John Lennon’s “Imagine”.
You know what the funniest thing about Canada is? It’s the little differences. Wonderful place it is, the message could not be clearer: if you want unsweetened ice tea at any store or restaurant, fast food or fancy, you can drink lemonade-sweetened Nestea or fuck right off you wimp.
Given that it’s a British Commonwealth, or something, I’d thought Canada would have more sensitivity to the variations of tea people like to drink.
Breezed through with only part of a day in Toronto and two days in Montréal. In French-speaking Québec I fought the instinct to gush out my halting high school French freshman year skills. Kept the clumsily composed phrases to myself, sometimes whispering them when the moment passed. Did break out a few “Merci” without shame. Increased resolve to some day get to France and of course apologize to all around for George W. Bush-era and now Trump-era buffoonery done by Republicans des états-unis.
Basilique Notre-Dame De Montréal on Canada Day en route to the fireworks show at Old Port.
I unknowingly scheduled us to arrive in Montréal on Canada Day (July 1). I got to the Old Port where a 10 p.m. fireworks display was the crescendo to a day-long event. The city was active, weather great, and a lot of human activity.
I missed the first minute of fireworks as I was still walking down a street to get within sight. The music was not the national anthem of “Oh, Canada”. It was the main music theme to the “Lord of the Rings”. Then after about 10-12 minutes of medium trajectory fireworks, the show was over. Disney-trained me expected spectacle, grandeur, patriotism, boasting, expense! Fireworks in shapes! Hearts! Mickey Mouse heads! Fireworks bursting inside other fireworks then becoming another kind of fireworks!
Instead it was a modest “Here are your fireworks. Got ‘em? Good. Now let’s all go home. The police are working late and most of you probably have got work tomorrow. It’s Monday night.”
Others leisurely and pleasantly walking back didn’t seem to be as bewildered and underwhelmed as I was. Then I started laughing and I’m still chuckling on & off about it now.
“Autoportrait” (2016) by Yannick Pouliot. A two-way mirror. [Left] Your narrator. My daughter and I marveled at this exchanging places. [Right] Daughter sits to rest as I stand on the other side.
Within the first few minutes of watching Canada television, my daughter remarked during a commercial break for a local show & tell programm(e) that most every element seemed to not yell or want to rattle the t.v. in the way that we were used to. Typically that’s attributed to a Canadian trait/stereotype of modesty (“Sorry”). But Canada has national healthcare. The U.S. does not. Canada seems better in attending to general well-being. Increasingly I don’t think the tone is attributed to modesty so much as we in the U.S. are accustomed to feeling so on edge, working to exhaustion, aware that a major health event could bankrupt us and put us on the street, that we need to get screamed at to get our attention. Stress and worry has made us collectively dumber and more selfish and unable to identify our true sources of stress. Our media often whips us up then directs us to the wrong causes for why life/society isn’t working for us like it could. In the wealthiest nation in human history.
As we wrapped up watching the “Good Omens” series finale (fun – ups & downs – but fun!), Room Service (ehm, I mean “Service Aux Chambre”) knocked on our door tonight and accidentally gave us extra sheets and blankets. So our teens made a pillow & blanket shelter.
Le Forte du Portland Famillie en Montréal, Québec.
Yes, we had poutine in Montréal. Two different kinds. La Banquise seves 30 different kinds and is open 24 hours a day. Charming place, tasty. Back to the States tomorrow!
[Orig. posted 2015] Anyone who clings to the tow rope of self as we climb – while circumstances and others flit and swirl around to make you change or stay the same, which of course is everyone – can relate to “Wanda Why Aren’t You Dead”.
This poem is already great: patters, vernacular, evocative of a variety of voices. With race riots in the news, again, with rage and hope fueling masses of people with demands for long overdue justice – many lines resonated with me. This poem is much grander than race, but “wanda what is it like being black” brought to the fore a dynamic that has jabbed many times.
Oregon is not a diverse state, and has a deeply racist past toward blacks in particular. And when talk of race arises, if there is anyone present at all who is non-white, that person is not only “other” in a room of whites, but often feels obliged to speak not on her/his behalf, but on behalf of the experiences of millions of people that run a range of experiences and a spectrum of barely-related shades spread across continents (but of course are people born and raised for generations in the U.S. like most everyone else in the room). And these obligations to speak on behalf of entire races/skin tones often leaves hanging in the air: “But what does she/he think as an individual?”
But that is only a part of Wanda Coleman’s poem which wittily comments on womanhood and the human condition and the way we try to control one another, and how we have to resist being defined by others.
The photo montage in the video below, with many photos of Wanda Coleman in various stages of her life as Coleman recites her poem, is a brief & worthwhile. Coleman died in 2013. Her biography at Poetry Foundation.
Wanda Why Aren’t You Dead By Wanda Coleman
wanda when are you gonna wear your hair down wanda. that’s a whore’s name wanda why ain’t you rich wanda you know no man in his right mind want a ready-made family why don’t you lose weight wanda why are you so angry how come your feet are so goddamn big can’t you afford to move out of this hell hole if i were you were you were you wanda what is it like being black i hear you don’t like black men tell me you’re ac/dc. tell me you’re a nympho. tell me you’re into chains wanda i don’t think you really mean that you’re joking. girl, you crazy wanda what makes you so angry wanda i think you need this wanda you have no humor in you you too serious wanda i didn’t know i was hurting you that was an accident wanda i know what you’re thinking wanda i don’t think they’ll take that off of you
wanda why are you so angry
i’m sorry i didn’t remember that that that that that that was so important to you
“[My mother] wasted nothing of what she felt” — Frieda Hughes, daughter of poets Sylvia Plath and Ted Hughes.
I’m reading Ariel: The Restored Edition by Sylvia Plath. Published in 2004, it presents the full set of poems that Sylvia Plath intended for her collection Ariel. Initially, Sylvia Plath’s widower, poet Ted Hughes, had removed 12 poems from Ariel when published in 1965, two years after Plath’s suicide, mostly because they were directed at particular family members and friends that would have been hurtful. He selected 12 other poems and an introduction by poet Robert Lowell. The Restored Edition removes the 12 Ted Hughes added and restores the 12 Plath left in a black notebook with her manuscript.
This book has a facsimile of her manuscript with several edits by Plath. It’s interesting to look at her notations and process.
Ted Hughes & Sylvia Plath
Some people who project themselves into Sylvia Plath’s poetry and biography have long viewed Hughes as a misogynistic villain looking to suppress his gifted wife. Frieda Hughes, one of Plath & Hughes’ daughters, defends her father throughout the Forward:
In considering Ariel for publication my father had faced a dilemma. He was well aware of the extreme ferocity with which some of my mother’s poems dismembered those close to her — her husband, her mother, her father, and my father’s uncle Walter, even neighbors and acquaintances. He wished to give the book a broader perspective in order to make it more acceptable to readers, rather than alienate them. He felt that some of the nineteen late poems, written after the manuscript was completed, should be represented. “I simply wanted to make the best book I could,” he told me.
All of the poems Ted Hughes removed showed up in Plath’s Collected Poems, published in 1981 and edited by Ted Hughes. In that book, Ted Hughes listed the original poems in Ariel that Plath had left in her manuscript.
My father had a profound respect for my mother’s work in spite of being one of the subjects of its fury. For him the work was the thing, and he saw the care of it as a means of tribute and a responsibility.
Frieda Hughes then becomes devastating toward family interlopers. It took me a long time to read Sylvia Plath because oa cult of possession and preciousness got in the way of my ability to value the work (and I struggle with poetry anyway — and, okay, this silly-ass reason, too). But this section provided a direct connection where she sums up people who attack her father and reshape her mentally imbalanced and astonishingly talented mother into a golem:
But the point of anguish at which my mother killed herself was taken over by strangers, possessed and reshaped by them. The collection of Ariel poems became symbolic to me of this possession of my mother and of the wider vilification of my father. It was as if the clay from her poetic energy was taken up and versions of my mother made out of it, invented to reflect only the inventors, as if they could possess my real, actual mother
The Forward is fascinating. With thought and care it fans away the fog of melodrama. It tethered me from a person still living to passionate, caring, flawed people. On the role of her father, Frieda Hughes sums up:
When she died leaving Ariel as her last book, she was caught in the act of revenge, in a voice that had been honed and practiced for years, latterly with the help of my father. Though he became a victim of it, ultimately he did not shy away from its mastery.
Frieda Hughes, a painter and a writer with several volumes, maintains that she did not read either parent’s poetry until she was 35, save for a few instances where her father read children’s verse to her or played recordings. She wanted to establish her own identity away from her parents’ work. Intellectually, avoiding your famous parents’ poems is possible. When they came up as a subject of study, Frieda says she was able to develop another course of study with her tutors. Bad marks would be devastating, good marks would lead to her being thought as having an advantage. Though, Harold Bloom’s The Anxiety of Influence howls at this claim at decades-long avoidance. Frieda Hughes in a speech also describes holding her mother’s books in bookstores, presumably without opening them, thinking of what if her mother had lived, and setting the books down and leaving.
Frieda Hughes wrote the furious poem “My Mother” on the verge of the movie Sylvia, a BBC production starring Gwyneth Paltrow released in 2003. Frieda Hughes, her mother’s literary executor after the death of her father in 1998, denied the use of her mother’s poetry in the film. Biography can add color to art, but there’s a balance to be struck between sublime absorption and ghoulishness.
MY MOTHER
by Frieda Hughes
They are killing her again. She said she did it One year in every ten, But they do it annually, or weekly, Some even do it daily, Carrying her death around in their heads And practising it. She saves them The trouble of their own; They can die through her Without ever making The decision. My buried mother Is up-dug for repeat performances.
Now they want to make a film For anyone lacking the ability To imagine the body, head in oven, Orphaning children. Then It can be rewound So they can watch her die Right from the beginning again.
The peanut eaters, entertained At my mother’s death, will go home, Each carrying their memory of her, Lifeless – a souvenir. Maybe they’ll buy the video.
Watching someone on TV Means all they have to do Is press ‘pause’ If they want to boil a kettle, While my mother holds her breath on screen To finish dying after tea. The filmmakers have collected The body parts, They want me to see. They require dressings to cover the joins And disguise the prosthetics In their remake of my mother. They want to use her poetry As stitching and sutures To give it credibility. They think I should love it – Having her back again, they think I should give them my mother’s words To fill the mouth of their monster, Their Sylvia Suicide Doll, Who will walk and talk And die at will, And die, and die And forever be dying.
Attended my first-ever writers/writing program/writing faculty/editors/agents/publishers/booksellers conference a few days ago. One among the 14,000 or so people attending the Association of Writers & Writing Programs Conference March 27-30. An impressive, wide-ranging, energizing event. And a few days before I found that this national event was right down the street this year in my home city of Portland, Oregon. Even though I’m not superstitious, I know a sign when I see one.
Anne Sexton
I mostly took sessions on the nature of the business of writing and the structure of the industry. Afterward I even more motivated to pursue this interest. Wish I found the conference 15 years ago, but glad to have found it now.
The ideas in my book are important and urgent to me, and funny. But trying to extract/wash/craft an exquisite silver filigree design from out of the mud I’ve glopped around it remains a challenge. Do the words from my head performs as I’d like when they run through another person’s head?
Trying to balance my free time between continuing to revise the complete manuscript, seeking agents, and continuing to tinker with a writer’s platform. With all that in mind, for National Poetry Month I’ve got “Frenzy” by Anne Sexton in mind, a poem about the creative process.
And oh, I know it’s not all a silver filigree in there. There are silver daggers in there, too.
Frenzy by Anne Sexton
I am not lazy I am on the amphetamine of the soul. I am, each day, typing out the God my typewriter believes in. Very quick. Very intense, like a wolf at a live heart. Not lazy. When a lazy man, they say, looks toward heaven, the angels close the windows.
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Oh, angels, keep the windows open so that I may reach in and steal each object, objects that tell me the sea is not dying, objects that tell me the dirt has a life-wish, that the Christ who walked for me, walked on true ground and that this frenzy, like bees stinging the heart all morning, will keep the angels with their windows open, wide as an English bathtub.
I also designed a cover from scratch. Modifying existing paintings or sculptures of Zeus is, like, RIGHT THERE as an idea but since I don’t own the copyright to those artworks I decided to play with colors and typefaces and a simple design that I would clearly own. That cover design is in this post.
Have you used Wattpad before? It’s vast and active, but looks like a good way to interact with comments and sharing posts. Let me know if you have pointers.